what would happen if i never went to that soccer game. Would Seb and I talk? Would we have a thing? or do we even have a thing...? would my relationship with sky be any better than it is now?









how am i supposed to control what he thinks.. feels, or wants to so badly go with. i have no idea how this even started. i know writing this isnt going to help anything,, but myself. should i go for him.. every day i ask for a sign. but who should i ask. today, when i was laying on my couch, praying to discover a sign; the cat meows.. i couldnt decipher wheather or not that was my sign. so i asked again, and again, and again. half of the time nothing happend. the other half, i felt like i had an answer, but it wasnt good enough. i dont know what this means, or what could happen. i ask myself what i should do everyday. should i keep going what i have with sebastian? or should i stop. all i ever hear from nora is how he always talks about me. and how he likes me so much. but would it ever kill him to show me how he really feels? he barely even texts me. he calls me beautiful, and cutie. but how am isupposed to know if hes just playing me or not. thats all im really worried about. and does he talk to sky still? or did he drop her like a ton of bricks ; the ones that i feel dropping one by one getting heavier and trying to strangle me. i wish that everything could just fall into place. all i ever asked for was a new guy. someone who i never knew. someone who would kiss me in public, hold my hand when hes with his friends; and introduce me as his girl.